Heart of the Matter

India.Arie
The Heart of the Matter
Testimony: Vol 1, Life & Relationship

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I've been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn't keep us warm

I've been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carryin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside

I wanna be happily ever after
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don't love me anymore
Even if you don't love me anymore

Been listening to India.Arie's exquisite rendition of an old Don Henley song. First heard the song in the SATC: The Movie trailer, and immediately got hooked onto it. Such a poignant song with heartfelt lyrics that talks about a relationship gone wrong, and one of the them moving on and the time for healing and forgiveness has to happened. It is an absolutely beautiful and moving song.

Came into my thoughts the other day, one of the jobs I would really like to have is a record company executive or perhaps being able to start up my own record label. I'm thinking somewhere along the lines of MK Records....? Music is definitely one of my passions in life and listening to up and coming artists is something that excites me. I would really like to discover the next Alicia Keys, John Mayer or even Britney Spears (well, just to make some $$$$ first). Would definitely be something cool as well as giving some non-mainstream artist a musical platform.

On a separate note, 3 of my friends announced their engagement yesterday. So, that officially brings my wedding invitation tally to 11 (I think?). Is there something in the year 2008 or am I missing out the sudden surge in marital bliss? Anyways, really excited and happy for all my friends who are heading down this big step. You could probably give me some wise words of wisdom after a year.